REFLECTIONS ON THE PATH: 2015 TO THE PRESENT
When I began my journey almost a year ago I knew that I was searching for something that would change me for the better. I wasn’t exactly on a journey to find myself. I have always known who I am, despite what others would like me to believe.
Looking back, almost a year ago now, I think the point was to become bigger than my body. I think the whole point was to become bigger than my country and more expansive than the confines of race, religion, or the status quo would allow.
I suppose I was on a quest to fully accept myself and embrace the divine energy that flows through my spirit and gives my body life.
I learned a lot and received some great revelations along the way. Time has shown me what I cannot change and for that I am grateful.
I have come to realize that despite my best efforts I can’t shatter people’s perceptions of me. I can’t take away their judgments. I can’t prevent someone from seeing me as they want me to be.
Try as I might I can’t prevent someone from seeing my beauty, spirituality, or bravery as a threat to their very existence or ability to feel alive in this world.
I can only be who I am. I can only shine and be refined into an even purer version of myself. I realize that the light will blind some people. Their eyes will refuse to adjust. They may become violent, angry, or dismissive in act to maintain a sense of balance and control.
I cannot allow their behavior or their ignorance to prevent me from growing. I cannot allow their lack of self love to prevent me from honoring myself.
I now understand that the ability to love myself and be true to myself is the most revolutionary and radical act I can ever take.
I don’t have to denigrate someone else to appear strong. I don’t have to go where I am not wanted. I don’t have to share space, conversations, or my bed with anyone who refuses to acknowledge my brilliance.
I don’t have to, I don’t want to , and I won’t. I won’t do it.
I will not hide.
Not in Europe. Not in Africa. Not in any part of my life.
I refuse to be silent.
I am here.
The journey taught me that.
I am here.
**This message is for me but it also for you: Don’t hide. Be who you are**
Love from Florence,